Wandering & Wondering

I am not afraid of the dark

I am afraid of darkest secrets discovered

Secrets so buried that my conscious only acknowledges the shift during the solstice

Am I
Why not
Could he
Never been

Whispers that bubble up

In the reflective mirror of the surface of his own secret pond of deep emotions

Too hard
To hold back

Uncried tears

I could have
Silly of me
I’ve gone much too far
Let me

Played on repeat

While I smile and pretend

that I am not blitzed apart at the core

Because my nervous system feels relaxed enough to feel it all

in that darkness after wandering in the shadow of his shadows…masks off

When just once

I want to be coaxed

Tell me…I got you